Many days...today included, I feel like my life is an array of scattered pieces. Days are crazy in the Koehler house, and I try to keep it all in check. May 13th feels like I didn't hold it all together well, but I'm thankful for the fresh start tomorrow. Psalm 18:20 is a new favorite verse for me. "God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before him. When I got my act together, he gave me a fresh start. Now I'm alert to God's ways, I don't take God for granted. Every day I review the ways he works, I try not to miss a trick. I feel put back together, and I'm watching my step. God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes." Each phrase of this verse has an idea to consider. First, I love the simple thought that God is the one who makes my life complete. I can search for that feeling of completeness; I can work at completeness. But God makes me complete with all of my pieces. My life feels like a million pieces partly because I have a full house, and partly because of the many stages and stations of life we are walking through simultaneously. I love it, but there are days it can be overwhelming. So I am trying to remember to give the pieces to God frequently not just when it feels like to much.
Next, being alert to God's ways is a discipline that changes life. I know that I miss much of God's work, but I find the more time I spend getting to know God, the more I see God's ways. Attempting to seeing life and especially people the way God does, changes me. One of the keys to seeing God's ways is in the next phrase which says to review how God works daily. That takes time and effort. I have written in my journal (a few days) of how I see God working, and it helps me be more excited about God's work. It also takes the frustration off the things I want to see fixed, changed, and done. Lastly, I believe opening my heart to God's eyes has the idea of being honest with God. I'm not sure why we hide our feelings from God, but over and over in the Psalms David shares his feelings with God. These feelings are open, bold, and real. When I share my heart with God, there is healing and safety. I desire to be more open with God.